Twin Wonders

I watch you sleeping side by side
and shake my head in wondrous awe
what miracle brought you to us
what void you filled
when I knew of no void

The circumstances creating you
could never have been guessed
anticipated, or believed
No one, me least of all
would have thought you two
were exactly what we needed

The fascination of opposite twins
the way you know me
laughing and kicking
trying to get me to see you
as if to say, hey I'm here mom
trying to get me to hold you
and hug you close
and talk to you

But I started loving you long before
you ever laid eyes on this world
how could I help it?
How could I not talk to you
and hug you close
and hold you
and love my twin sons?

One so fair, blue eyes so wide
dimples and smiles
overtaking your face
One so mysterious,
bronzed with beautiful
long-lashed brown eyes
both so joyous
so happy
so wonderfully miraculous
so perfect

Never failing to amaze me
babies so tiny
so fragile
so dependant on me
Needing me for so many years
then leaving my side
to have babies
of your own

Is your brother really ten already?
Another decade
and I'll be right here
where I am now
again

Some call me brave
I say you caught me
in your twin web of love
reaching for me
first with your cries
then with your eyes
now with your hands
soon with your arms
Eventually retreating
reaching for another woman
and asking her to love you too

But today I watch you sleeping
trying to catch snatches of nap
so I can keep up with you
when you are up at night
wanting me to feed and play...
then the sun slips away
and tonight replaces today
just as tears will someday
replace your smiles, my loves

I wish I could forever protect
but I cannot
and so I love....